I'm Back!

Wow, it's been 3 years since I've posted on this thing. How neat to read the last post about finding my prince...I have been so blessed to find him!! Well, I can't guarantee how amazing of a blogger I will be, but I will post something every so often. Let's see, I work the next two days, but right now I'm very much enjoying an earl gray tea with my robe on, and nothing in sight to do for the day. Well, except last night's dishes. Random realization, last night me and Tommy were watching a movie with Gerard Butler in it...and it hit me. He's the Phantom of the Opera! The one with Emmy Rossum. That's all for now I believe.

Someday my prince will come...

So today has been an interesting day. I went to a wedding of two people I went to high school with and was totally just enjoying it. My favorite part about a wedding is watching the groom's face as the bride comes down the aisle. It is beautiful. When you really stop and ponder the beauty of a marriage and of a wedding, it can take your breath away. At least it takes mine away. I will say that it is very special when two people love the Lord with all of their heart and then put each other second to Him. I have seen SOME wonderful examples of that, but unfortunately not many. And the idea of two people becoming one, I love it. I've been through a pretty darn rough spot when it comes to love, but the Lord has mercifully delivered me from it with no doing on my part, and I am more grateful than I can even begin to say. And I have learned so very well that you cannot learn anything until you have experienced fire, even consider it a blessing! I've heard the analogy as many people have I'm sure that spring cannot come until winter comes first....
I guess what I'm getting at is that I cannot wait to finally meet the man that will look at me no matter how I look and truly love me for who I am. Not for who he wishes I was or what he hopes I'll change into, and not only for looks, but knows ME for ME and loves me just the way I am. That statement in itself is incomprehensible to me at the moment. And to meet a man that puts God absolutely first in his life, no questions asked, would also be amazing to see. I have a great desire to submit myself to a man of God who has the spirit of Christ about Him and I would be so excited to respect him. I would feel so privileged. And the best part about all of this is that I can honestly say that God would still be always more magnificent and ever-loving than my future husband could ever be. And I know he will be human and mess up. But to meet a man that functions out of the Holy Spirit.......I've never had a male leader in my life, I have always seen "men" be weak, and all the women in my life have been the strong ones. I intend to break that trend, no matter how long I have to wait.
I guess I'm a little sappy tonight, but you know what, I think it is a healthy sappy. I'm not obsessed with finding someone, I'm just excited for when I do. God has always been so good to me, and I trust him. I REALLY DO!!!
Well, I guess I'm gonna go to bed. I really shouldn't post things like this, it's a little too personal for my taste, but then again, I did post it didn't I! :)

Good stuff

So my daily devo these days is Oswald Chambers, "My Utmost for His Highest," and I will never cease to be amazed at how deep a few small paragraphs can be. So ya know how we as Christians pray that God will make us more like Him? I know I do, who doesn't? Well, this devo challenges that idea, and has other good things to say. It makes perfect sense, and I suppose it's not the first time I heard it. I really felt like I should share this...June 10th

Seek if you have not Found. "ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss." If you ask for things from life instead of from God, you ask amiss, i.e., you ask from a desire for self-realization. The more you realize yourself the less will you seek God. "Seek, and ye shall find." Get to work, narrow your interests to this one. Have you ever sought God with your whole heart, or have you only given a languid cry to Him after a twinge of moral neuralgia? Seek, concentrate, and you will find.
"Ho, every one that thirsteth, come ye to the water." Are you thirsty, or smugly indifferent-so satisfied with your experience that you want nothing more of God? Experience is a gateway, not an end. Beware of building your faith on experience, the metallic note will come in at once, the censorious note. You can never give another person that which you have found, but you can make him homesick for what you have.
"Knock, and it shall be opened unto you." "Draw nigh to God." Knock-the door is closed, and you suffer from palpitation as you knock." "Cleanse your hands"-knock a bit louder, you begin to find you are dirty. "Purify your heart"-this is more personal still, you are desperately in earnest now-you will do anything. "Be afflicted"-have you ever been afflicted before God at the state of your inner life? There is no strand of self-pity left, but a heartbreaking affliction of amazement to find you are the kind of person that you are. "Humble yourself"-it is a humbling business to knock at God's door-you have to knock with the crucified thief. "To him that knocketh, it shall be opened."

The last paragraph really struck me as well, because often this is exactly the breakdown I go through before I feel like I have returned to God's side. "You have to knock with the crucified thief..." WOW. Talk about a humbling phrase.

I am so thankful that God continues to show mercy to me. I fail Him so many times. You know when your heart just feels like bursting with praise? Well, I could never honestly say I felt that until recently. "My chains are gone, I've been set free, my God my Savior, has ransomed me, and like a flood His mercy rains..unending love, AMAZING GRACE."

Well hello blog...

This could be fun. I've never liked the idea of blogging, sounded dumb to me for the longest time, but hey, could be productive :D So....what to blog about, what to blog about....maybe i'll think of something tomorrow, haha

OH, and by the way, I GRADUATED!!!!!!!!!